From the first time of this journey, I know that this journey shall not be easy. Slowly, I learn that there will be temptation, failure, threat, and sometimes, miserable thing. I faced it, guys, I’ve ever faced it. Life consists of many chunks of struggle, tears, weeping, but on the other side, there are joy, sacrifice, comfort, surprise in life. My life is covered, sustained, and gripped by the Unseen Hands. I can feel His hands day by days gripped me strongly, never wants to release me, and these days He said, “Your heart is Mine!” He wants me to put Him on the first place on my heart.

I faced the failure many times, miserable life many times, an so on. Trapped in the bitterness, confusion, pleasures of the world, being degraded, failure in achievement, being imprisoned by people’s words. Yeah those are the taste of the life. But I can be thankful among the bad things. The Unseen Hands didn’t take me from this taste, but He walks with me through it. My friends can see the smile everyday on my face, not because I’m sanguine person and easy to smile, but I indeed have the strong power from Him. He teached me to fly higher and higher, to know His heart day by day, to fear and honor His holiness. And the most divine thing is He makes me lose myself and fill it by His being.

I realized that there’s no super or great human. We all have weakness, wandering heart, and chance to be lost. Our heart is so fragile. That’s why we have to let Him to seal our heart.

I wrote it to a friend in struggling, want to tell you that Our Lord is always good, no matter what we face. He doesn’t want you to feel the pain, never! He’s shaping you with His very heart, making you to be awesome vessel, pure gold, beautiful bride in His eyes.


Sincere Songs


I’m glad to see the sincerity, especially from children. It takes me to the very heart of the human that can be the offering to God.

The people brought children to Jesus, hoping He might touch them. The disciples shooed them off. But Jesus was irate and let them know it: “Don’t push these children away. Don’t ever get between them and me. These children are at the very center of life in the kingdom. Mark this: Unless you accept God’s kingdom in the simplicity of a child, you’ll never get in.” Then, gathering the children up in His arms, He laid His hands of blessing on them.

Mark 10:13-16 MSG


Gloria in excelsis Deo, yang artinya “Glory to God in the highest” (keren banget artinya).

Sebentar lagi kita akan memasuki tahun 2012, 2011 akan berakhir. Merayakan Natal sudah menjadi seperti kebiasaan setiap tahun. Saking terbiasanya, saya menganggap Natal itu biasa saja. Yang asyik hanyalah perubahan suasana dari pernak-pernik natal, kue-kue, dan lagu-lagu.

Jujur saya, saya lebih suka Paskah ketimbang Natal, karena beberapa alasan. Yang pertama, saya banyak menemui bahwa natal itu lebih berkaitan dengan hedonisme daripada Tuhan Yesus sendiri. Di banyak negara, natal identik dengan party, holiday, dan hedonisme. Banyak gereja juga yang menghabiskan duitnya untuk perayaan natal besar-besaran. Yang kedua, gereja saya tidak merayakan natal, karena setahu saya, natal tidak tercatat di Alkitab untuk dirayakan, tetapi untuk Paskah, Tuhan menyuruh bangsa Israel untuk merayakan Paskah.

Namun cerita ini belum berakhir.

Beberapa waktu yang lalu, saya mendengar pernyataan dari gembala saya di pelayanan mahasiswa. Itu membuka wawasan saya tentang natal. Beliau berkata, “semangat natal adalah semangat misi”. Artinya tidak ada pengorbanan Yesus di kayu salib kalau Dia tidak lahir ke dunia. Kedatangan Yesus ke dunia saja merupakan kesukaan besar bagi seluruh dunia. Kedatangan orang-orang yang membawa kabar baik ke suatu tempat adalah suatu sukacita bagi tempat tersebut, kedatangannya saja lho! Kedatangan orang yang membawa Injil ke kampus-kampus adalah sukacita besar bagi kampus-kampus.

Betapa indahnya kedatangan mereka yang membawa kabar baik! Roma 10:15

Jadi tidak ada Paskah kalau tidak ada Natal. Tidak ada kematian dan kebangkitan Yesus kalau tidak ada kelahiran Yesus.


Merry Joyous Christmas!

When I Survey The Wondrous Cross

When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of glory died
My richest gain I count but loss
And pour contempt on all my pride

Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast
Save in the death of Christ my God!
All the vain things that charm me most
I sacrifice them to His blood

See from His head, His hands, His feet
Sorrow and love flow mingled down!
Did e’er such love and sorrow meet
Or thorns compose so rich a crown?

Were the whole realm of nature mine
That were a present far too small
Love so amazing, so divine
Demands my soul, my life, my all